Summer Plans

I have been planning to have my mastectomy site revised this summer. As the time fast approaches for me to make an appointment with the surgeon and get scheduled I've decided I don't want to. I am having a hard time even thinking about going back into a hospital and having a surgery. And I don't want to think about any recovery issues. We start semester classes this fall and have a short summer to get ready. I definitely don't want to take the chance of a slow recovery or complications. Heaven knows I am prone to complications. It was a great surprise to me that I could actually make this decision. I can't figure out why. It's not like the surgery was going to change anything except make the surgical site neater.